le le ledesma

Incredible. Overwhelmed. Introspective. Confused. Happy. Sad. Lonely. Foreign.

I feel all these right now.

Living in a new place is strange . . . as it should be . . . it's new. I've never been in such a new exciting place as Austin (granted NY was freakin awesome, but I knew I was leaving in 6 weeks, so I didn't let my heart get too attached. . . . there's no holding back when it comes to Austin).

I have met some really great people. My roommates are so caring. God knows exactly how to work things out. My teammates are incredible. There have been a few bumps already, but we worked through them and I'm excited because I know we'll work through more when they come.

Vox is unreal. Their vision and heart hit home with me, and I'm more than ready to jump right in and get grounded with these guys. (www.voxveniae.com)

I got my car back from the mechanic and it's doing alright. Was still giving me some trouble, but Danny Luu (my mechanic) said for me to buy fuel injector cleaner and put it in the next time I fill up, so today I did. It seems to be running better, so I'm in a little better spirits when it comes to the Nissan.

Still feeling a bit lonely. God is working a lot on my heart. There are some things I know He wants me to work through right now, and it's pretty painful, quite scary, and I'm not too sure if I'm ready. He continues to teach me more about who I am, and how He's made me. I find this almost hysterical. Shouldn't you, of all people, know yourself? After all, you have lived with yourself every second since birth, witnessed every event, walked through relationships, witnessed change . . . and yet I am still wondering who I am. It feels so weird to say that. I feel like this is something most people go through in highschool, somehow I missed that memo. Never-the-less, here we are, and here we'll stay; in this confusing anxious ambiguity of self.