WHAT!?

well, i'm totally 100% accepted and going to Texas. now it's the long amazing journey of seeing God provide the means and support to get me there and provide for me while i'm there. i have no doubt that it'll happen and my life will forever be changed. i'm super excited!!!

on another note. i'm getting really irritated with some people. not really anyone in particular . . . but it's just a certain "type" of people. you know . . . it's the ones who proclaim to love Jesus . . . to 'seek Him with all their hearts' and then you're looking through their pics on facebook and WOOPS . . . there's a pic of them flippin the camera off, a pic of them making out with their boyfriend/girlfriend, a pic of them dressed all seductive, they're drinking a beer, wearing a bathing suit that let's everything show. . . and you're like . . . HUH!???!? or rather "what the freakin heck?!" i just don't get it. if you love Him, then live like you love Him! if you don't want to live like you love Him, then don't say you do . . . easy as that!

i'm not saying living for Him is easy . . . but for cyring out loud, STOP LYEING TO YOURSELF AND THE WORLD!!! just be real to who you are, if you're a person who's completely consumed with self and wants to have sex and party . . . then be THAT . . . don't say you love Jesus! ugh.

what has happened to integrity!? people care more about being socially accepted and loved than sacrificing for their savior. i understand that i need to look at them with grace as the Father does . . . but at the same time i'm tired of seeing people being passive about Christ, who claim to love and know Him! "ye shall know them by their fruit" . . . and frankly, most of the fruit i'm seeing . . . is ROTTEN!

i respect an athiest more than a lukewarm, washed out, hypocritical christian . . . atleast they live what they believe.

SUMMER!?

well, i'm trying to figure out what i should do for the summer. i know i should work . . . but the question is . . . where should i live? i can live in anderson with the girls i live with now, and pay 200 or more in rent, work at Jax and maybe BAM again . . . or i could go home and work with my family at the carpet cleaning business. . . i want to spend as much time with my family before i go as possible. but . . . i'm not sure they can afford me. but it would be great to be able to have a flexible schedule so i could raise support and such. that's very important to me. but . . . at the same time . . . i would have to drive to new spring every weekend . . . which brings me to Jax. i only just started working there . . . so if i leave for the summer and not come back in the fall . . . i will have only worked there for like 3 months maybe. i just feel bad that they would have hired someone for such a short period of time. another solution is to move home, not pay rent, work for my parents, and then come and stay with the girls i live with now on the weekends and work at jax and go to new spring. now, that sounds perfect. . . . ha, but is it my perfect, or God's perfect? we'll see. . .

gallery show?

melinda carter called me last night. she's one of the staff, and basically the genious mind behind the Austin Stint. it was so good to hear from her and to hear what God is doing in her life. She made me want to be in Austin really bad. i told her that if i could leave tomorrow i would. and truly, i would =). i submitted my applicated completely yesterday. i'll know within a couple of weeks!! and then i have to start planing and figuring things out for sure about leaving.
A friend of mine just got married a couple weeks ago, and i never knew about it. granted, we did lose touch kind of . . . but still, how can i lose touch enough to not even know she was getting married! how crazy is that!? i'm so happy for her, but i totally missed everything!
my mom called the other night just to tell me that she loved me. i was shocked. not that i don't think she loves me, but it was really really sweet of her to just call and tell me so. i think she's really sad that i'm leaving, i'm sad too . . . but i'd be even more sad to stay cuz i'd know i wasn't obeying the Father.
i completely changed what i'm doing my painting on. it's semi due on wednesday, and i'm not even 1/4 done with it. but it's okay, we're all pretty sure Mr. K will give us an extension. OH, and i talked to Jo Carol about me having an art show before i head out. she said that would be fine. so i'm really excited! she said it could probably stay up a MONTH! i'm really excited cuz now my family will be able to see what i've done and all my friends will too. it's kind of scary too though because i've never had a show before . . . so i have no idea how to set things up, i guess i'll have to get everything framed . . . i don't know. i really want to do some charcoal/pastel work. i think i'll have time to do that over spring break, cuz goodness knows i don't have time to do anything outside of class right now.